Can you be a Christian and abuse drugs? This question may seem redundant to most people. Addiction such as pornography has reached epidemic proportions in the Christian community—especially with pastors and leaders.
Does sin separate us from God? Should we be surprised if alcoholics and drug addicts attend church? I started smoking weed when I was only 13 years old. At age 16 I had a conversion experience and quit drinking alcohol and ingesting drugs instantaneously. As time went on, I started dabbling in marijuana again. Every time I would smoke a joint a colossal guilt penetrated my soul to the core.
After a few episodes, I was smoking pot daily again. It seemed like nothing, was fun or challenging unless I was buzzed. I became less remorseful as time went on, although deep inside I felt like I was doing something wrong every time I got high. My wife and I started going to church regularly even though I was addicted to marijuana. I had two lives and two sets of friends. Making direct eye contact was difficult if I was high during a church service.
Eventually, I found a good eye drop which seemed to help, but I could only use it once a day. That meant I had to decide which people group would see me with clear eyes. Sometimes the drops didn’t seem to work as well when I was really high.
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There were stretches of time where I had quit smoking marijuana—sometimes four or five months at a time. During these dry times, I would open my bible daily and have a sense of joy and purpose. Once I took a few hits from a joint I would instantly tumble back into the trap of getting high all day long.
Although it was an addiction, it was still my choice to get high every day. For years I had wondered if it was a sin to smoke weed and go to church until I realized that when I was high I didn’t want to read God’s word, pray or fellowship with other believers.I think a verse in Hebrews 10 sums it up; “For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins.” This heart piercing verse is what began my road to recovery.
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